--Still I Wait - by Barry Veinotte --

"Still I Wait"

Why does sleep
run from me
in my exhaustion...

Why must my mind
play such games
with my sadness...

Why must I
always be
the one who waits...

I close my eyes and shiver -
visions of the truth,
of you there, me here,
and so much in-between.

Cover my ears but still hear-
echos of the past,
Words we both regret,
but we'll both say again.

The sun sparkles through the clouds -
A hint of promise,
a brief easing of
the acid in my heart.

I bring back the comfort of
my darkly shrouded doubt,
stomping the hope I need,
'till all its glow is gone.

Why does my heart
betray me now
with knawing doubt...

Why do your words
sound so strained
and so hollow...

Why do I chose
to stay and wait
for love that's doomed...